Sunday, July 8, 2012

傻婆 .o.

傻婆 =P 对啦就是你啦
那个又的孙奕珺... xD




喂你哦,呵呵...
我大概真的太疼你了啦呵呵...
你也被我宠坏了耶 ;)
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你看你, 有时想吃东西,会很高兴指着那个食物跟我说:“我要这个” =D
有时你也会笑着看着我说你想吃什么什么的
还有你也会想我帮你拿东西的时候直接就把那个东西给我什么都不用说,我也会帮你拿着


你自己大概没有发觉是是? =]
不过有什么关系喔? 至少不会有人可以那么疼你那么照顾你那么护着你那么爱你,是是?
就算你真的觉得这样不好,就算你真的能够习惯没有我,那大概又是要多久时间?
告诉我第二天就能习惯没有我,只是在骗我吧? 再怎样都骗不了自己..


我说啊呵呵,干嘛你就不接受我? 
时机未成熟?害怕在一次受伤害? 
哎,我懂我不应该这样问的... 但是我大概太急了...
没关系我会等你的,我不想被你认真地说我幼稚啦( 说笑那是没关系 )我也不想给人觉得我缠着你... 
我真的很爱你,从来没变过
但怎么有时候当我以为我们正在变得更靠近的时候,总有什么东西再把我们拉开很远很远的距离?


我不懂你怎么想我啦,但我希望你是一样也爱着我


可能你说现在不是时候,我们都还是学生,还要读书,要学习,以后还要分开到不一样的大学继续读书甚至出国... 这些我都懂啊,你当我真的有那么不成熟吗?呵呵 
你会看到我那么幼稚或者你觉得那么不成熟让你忍不住说: “成熟点啦” 那样,你应该开心才对啦 =] 
我说,别人都不会有机会看到我那样,只有你我才会那么无聊在你面前我才会变得那样
但是如果你真的不喜欢没关系,那我以后就都不要在你面前装幼稚咯 =P
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安啦死白痴哦我... 哈哈


好啦到最后我还是得很认真,真的很认真很认真地告诉你:




















如果你以后都不会变,你还是会一样爱我
你等我
到时候我一定会让你幸福
但如果你变了,也没关系
那就让我以后都在背后默默的
喜欢你
就好
因为如果你变了,你大概也不想我爱你了吧? 虽然我是爱你,但也只能剩下 喜欢 你而已吧? 爱你的工作,就让你爱的人做吧... 
不管到什么时候,我都会等你
如果有一天你和你的爱人分开了,我会很不知羞的把你拉回来
就算被说什么都好
比起那些我更加不愿意看到你一个人伤心,一个人哭
因为当你心痛,我会比你心痛多上千倍万倍






我真的衷心希望,有一天
我会让你成为



新娘











孙奕珺,我爱你 





Monday, July 2, 2012

Yup.

So why am I the one supposed to cry now? 
Haha, pathetic.


Okay so early in the morning everything was still sweet she seems like happy to see me and I brought her a pack of marshmallow and we finished it with a unimaginable speed (which is not good at all ) and I took the guitar I asked her to lend me and got back to class. Hmm everything still seemed normal.


Yup then was a whole day in bad mood.
First of all I would like to show my appreciation to my lovely head of BM. Yes. FUCK YOU. And FUCK YOU too because you can never imagine how FUCKING lot I FUCKING hate you. I got the red notice twice for BM because of you. You FUCKING BITCH GET LOST.
Then at the first recess I was thinking of playing the guitar and I played. I thought. Yup I really thought at least you would want to see me so I stopped playing and went to see you. Right I knew you would be unhappy but I never imagined that would made you not even want to talk to me. I tried to explain and apologized but seemed like I shouldn't take those for granted. I'm really sorry. Please don't not reply me it kills me. It hurts hell lot when I see you and you didn't even want to look at me nor talk to me.
Then I couldn't do well in class and yup I got frustrated when I see people doing another work that needs to be submitted by the end of the lesson. So I lend the work from my friend and managed to pass it over so I wouldn't get any record. AGAIN.
I returned the guitar at the next recess and I tried to talk to her. I thought that was better at last she had answered me a little. So I'd stayed with her for the whole recess since I don't know what to do and I didn't know why she didn't want to talk to me. That was really hurting. 
After recess I realized I hadn't had anything from morning so I grab the bread I bought last night and I almost swallowed it in whole. ( okay that's not true truth is I finished it really fast )
So I calmed myself down and planned what I want to do later. I thought of playing basketball later at evening, then I want to run for awhile and I want to cycle and play basketball again and again and again until morning comes but... Yup that FUCKING rain spoiled everything. And made worse my mood. I FUCKING love you rain. You made me even frustrated more and made my day worse even more.
I went to see her again before I go knowing that she's staying down for a tuition class which teacher is my Maths teacher. ( hmm... ) Yup I don't like that teacher. Not even a bit. But ah well as long as he teaches and can help her to do better in her Maths subject.
So all the way I ran in the rain. Still running trying to get to my car. Standing there in the rain when I couldn't find my car anywhere. Yes and FUCK you again rain why couldn't you rain heavier? So that I could wash myself with the rain and I could cry and nobody will notice and I could think of what's wrong with me today what's wrong with my life. How I wish you pour on me, rain. 
Finally I see my car reaching and I quickly ran to it. I dried myself with tissue and it didn't really work so I turned on the air-cond cooler. It was better when I reached home. 
Yup, I am in misery. And why don't you answer me?


FUCK this life. I hate myself.