Sigh

Finally got home. Sigh, I'm so exhausted. I've got no mood to go out why can't you guys just realize me?





I missed her. I seriously do. I didn't know where it came from, but I just tweeted to her. Gosh is it stupid to have done that?

Damn I know. No matter how I force myself, no matter what I say or do, I am so damn scared to know if you really are leaving me, forgetting me, and starting a new life without me, like I'm just a pass-by-er. I'm really scared, that this would happen. Maybe I'm just too weak not even qualified to be called as a man.

UGH. I feel so dizzy. I am so lost now. My eyes are a little swell and red this morning I woke up. I just told my parents I rubbed my eyes because they were really itchy. Truth is -- I've been letting my tears out whole night. I can merely control myself I just want to let everything out. Every time I think of us breaking up, fighting, the swell starts to form in my throat. Hell yea. I shouldn't be crying. I shouldn't even cry, but I just cried so damn easily. Maybe the Heart is really fragile. Maybe I am just hurt too much. I don't know.



What do I do without you? What do I what do I do? Come on. What do I do without you? What do I do?



Yea, teach me, anyone, what do I do now?

You know I didn't mean what I just said, but my God woke up on the wrong side of his bed, and it just don't matter now... 



No I just want you. But you'll not know this.